Would she will accept me back?

I cant think other people other that her. Oh my... I already messed myself about this. I try to get her back, but i scared that she forced herself to love me, not purely love me. I dont know. Mybe, i need to take it slow and steady, try to be friends for a while, until i feel that we are OKAY, until then i try approach her back, and ask again if can be together, mybe not again, but to create a new story,new happiness.

I changed a lot because of here. I dont know, either she cute,or beautiful,or intelligent, i dont know what i saw in her that i ignore that all, but in my heart,i just want her. Specially her heart. Well, the cute or anything is an advantage rite? Surely, i will wait it till the time come and hopely can be her husband forever.

Why i stick too her so long although many obstacle i need to go through?
-I dont know.

Why still hoping her?
-Don't know, i just see her that she was the first and the last. (Dont count between that)

What u see in her that u love so much?
-Her Heart.

Who u want to marry with?
-Her.

Did u count with her?
-Nope.

So, what u do to get her?
-Be friends for a while, to let her relaxed, till the suitable time, i try to approach her. As i don't know, if she still angry with me, or still trying to accept me, or just 'layan' me. I can't think what should i do actually.

What happen if she married with other people?
-Till then, i really should moved on, as long as she happy, although it break my heart, im still can smiling for it. And try to find replacement although its already late.


Sorry if so much broken english. Typing at office.

Pulau Langkawi

Yey, pulau yang teringin nak pergi tercapai jugak. Walau x dpt naik kereta kabel pon, x pelah... Mybe next time... Entah bile la yang part atas tu dah siap maintenance... Lame bebenor. dgn asyik windy je, mmg x jalan kereta kabel tu. ni kisah awal tahun 2014, buat vacation group. b4 this vacation mane entah, lpe. so every years, ktorunk dlm group ad buat event tahunan. Ni group kecil2 je, nak manage event pon sangkut2. hehehe. So, dlm vacation tu, yg arrang pasal tmpt best, tmpt penginapan, semua serah pd rakanku, Imp. Yng part budget, transport, deal akn choice yang terbaik, arrang ape yg perlu dibuat dlu, sape lg, its me laaa. ngeee.. So, nak dijadikan cerita lah, pada tarikh sekian-sekian(dah lupe daaa, gambar ade je bersepah, malas nak selak tarikh) berangkat la kita bertujuh kalau x silap(ish tang ni pon lupe jugak, ape nak jadi la) naik lah bas, bertolak dari kajang menuju ke jeti kuala perlis... Jeng2 berangkat mlm besok pagi2 bangun da smpai. ak? duk atas port paling depan, buat apa? ape lg photoshoot la, smbil menikmati pemandangan. Yela, 1st time punya jln mesti nk tgk punya suasana, walau x leh hafal jln nak p tu, tau2 gne waze je klo nk g. hahaha. Len smua membongkang je, ah x kesah la. So, sy bersama mazuz la dok x tido lg. Smpai ke jeti, huh, byk betul org! Penuh! sebok je nak nek waktu tu, g la nek waktu lain! ahahaha. Selfish btui. So, sesudah tu, bertolak naik feri gak, ade la family tu nak duk dgn fmily dorg, sbb terasing. X pelah pakcik, pakcik duk tmpt sy, sy duk tmpt pakcik. settle. Borak2, org PETH rupeny. lpe lak mik contact, klo x leh kje PETH, hehehe. Berangan kuat! So, dah sampai, mula la rojer org kereta sewa, sewa 2 myvi. woohoho... semua mlas jd driver! siot jer. hahaha, so g je la checkin kt hotel. rehat2 jap, sambil tu bincang tmpt ape nak pergi. Tp mmg ptg tu dah book for island hoping. so planning uk hari ke-2 dan ke-3 je.  Dah planning, huh mmg padat pny planning, x sure sume leh survive x dgn semua planning tu. so berlalu la hari demi hari. Ops, lpe nak bgtaw. Ktorunk g 3 hari, 2 malam. So, kte skip je ape semua kt situ, then pas shopping coklat pe semua, fuh, habis banyak! tup2 bagasi rseny dh berat. so booking la lg extra luggage tuk bwk brg semua... So, balik tu naik flight. Before flight tu, ktorunk bergambar la skit, sambil ak bagi ucapan la skit2 ala2 x reti. hahaha... ucap terima kasih ape semua la, ape yg penting! Kerjasama! SO, balik lah naik flight, sampai airport, ade la yang mengambilnya. So, Nah, blanje gambar lagiii!

Sikit je, ngeee... Adios!

So, for the next time, KRABI! Yey, Next event! X tahulah budget berape la tuk Krabi, mesti byk! Passport lagi!

The Moment Refreshed back...

Rse2, cite sal personal2 mcm x shiok je nak story rite now. Dkt tmpt kje td beriye je pikir nak balik nak posting story... Hmm, tapi x taw acane nak starting... Ah, short story udah le, cite lame kot, dh byk forgot, x taw nak huraikan acane.

Ha, ade la satu hari tu, ade la g wed mmbe le, ade la tgh2 mkn sodap2 lahapnye dgn cover2 sikit yela, mengadap 3 gadis kat depan, mane x ny. klo sorang je, comfirm2 la santak habis, laju je mkn psl nk tambah. Ngee... Ok la, back to cite lik, ade la sorang pakcik tua ni mai kat meje ktorg mkn, dok suh ak tolong masukkan ikan juadah pengantin tu masuk dlm plastik dye, dh letak dok dlm plastik tu, tup2 tbe2 je kate, "depan tu bini kau ye" ala2 gitu la dye ckp, repeat dok byk kali je. ah sudah, ape kene ngn pakcik ni, tau la ak da tolong dye masukkan ikan tu, tapi x kn la ucap trima kasih smpai gini. Ak mmg dh tersipu2 malu la. mmbe kt dpn dh snyum2 sengih da. ah suda... Taw la dye tu spe dulu. ish. time tu dye ckp byk kali tu psl dye tgh borak ngn mmbe dye kt belakang. then ble dye pandang dpn je, trus pakcik tu tny nama dye. erk, pas dye jwb nama tu, trus pakcik tu repeat psl bini tu balik, pastu pdn gue, erk. hahaha. pastu blah je. Ak, ngn mmbe ak pandang pelik je. Hmm... ade jugak la dlm dok pndg2 len, dok borak2 ade la curik selit2 pndg dye,yela, lama kot x bertemu. Ha, kadang2 masing kantoi curi2 tgk masing2. Hahaha... Itu lah nak dijadikan ceritanya... Time bergambar, yeye je mcm nak duk asing2 la, satu part bwh, satu part atas. tuptup yang org mikkn gmbr ktorung tu suh dua2 kat atas, kateny baru balance. Hmm.. Layan jelaaaa... X taw la itu kebetulan or ape, terserah la. Tapi, masing2 ade kejanggalan masing2. Nmpak la jgak. Pastu g la Pantai pada petang tu, melaram habis. Heee, pastu hantar rumah balik, then balik loh. Habis cerita.

Hahaha, Mcm ape entah cite kan? Hahaha. Ok la, nah belanje gambar.

Mimpiku di pagi hari...

Ahh, today, mimpi paling entah la nak kate ape, mimpi nak kate future pon ade, nak kate mimpi sweet giler pon ade. entah ia terjadi in reality or tidak? Berharap jela.

Mimpi yang mmg habis sweet sgt la, sweet biase2 je ok, takat sikatkn lah, mengadu2 bagai, and memacam lah. Tak tahulah, mcm ia short2 tukar part lain, tukar2. tang sweet je.

Yang x leh blahny, ad la dye bkak laptop, bukak je folder tu, folder tu bangun dri mimpi ingat tau, dah smpai kat office, menaip neh, dah lupe dah. tapi farmiliar la dgn naming folder tu, ngn tree folder tu berderet dalam 5 folder mcm tu. Semua penuh dgn gambar den dan lain2. Pastu ade plak gambar wedding. err, itu paling short sgt fikir. future sgt ke mimpi ak neh?

Dan leh lak terfikir, Kan 11/8/2014 ni kan hari isnin. Leh lak terfikir alasan dtg kije lmbt psl nak hantar kete g bengkel psl eksiden(mmg bru pas eksiden pon), yela dtg lmbt sbt fikirkan nak shoot dari Melaka ke KL agakla dlm 2 Jam paling lambat. Hahaha, mmg pikir alasan laaaa. Bangun2 je, eh, kat Rumah KL la, nak risau mende. hahaha.

Tuptup ayah kejutkan minta duit tuk amik kereta bru pas eksiden tu(sbb ayh yang hntrkn), nahhhhhh, melayang RM300... Layan jelaaaaaa.... Belum cat lg + RM500. Dem.

Ahaha, anyway, itu mimpi paling sweet sgt and menggembirakan hati sgt walau hanya seketika.

P/s : Sory la ayat berterabur, tip kat office neh. kne cover2 sikit. ahahhaha..

Dan dlm mimpi tu, adalah DIA. My 1st Love.

Anyway, Terima Kasih kerana menjemput sy ke open house awk semalam, and i appreciate sgt, sbb selama ini sy beraya dgn family awk je, tanpa awk. but yesterday, with you. walaupun x tahu status between us. i appreciate sgt, and sy x slhkn awk akn raya sblum ini yg awk tiada, sy fhm keadaan awk.

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Muhammad Ridhwan Bin Herny